Izzat Farhan

i know him from my first year in high school back on 2007. he's kinda cute and handsome , :P but i anggap dia mcm kawan sahaja, n tau tau i pindah school , dia try search me and form 2 i back to him , ktrg couple, right after 14 FEBRUARY 2008 <3 on 15 FEBRUARY 2008 we're in a relationship. i came to my old school just to give him a present his birthday present, 19 FEBRUARY 2008 .

then , we break up :(

2009
In the middle of the year , he ask his sister to ask for my phone number , so i give. i wasnt though that he will call me. well at that time he was in a relationship with other girl , so i dont mind. we met at skatepark at sec 13 , we have a long talk . hahah i miss him very much ! :( only god know. that night we have a talk on a phone i call him . so we talk and suddenly he said he ask for break to the girl because that girl ignore him . so he said " i tak kesah pon break dgn dia sebab i dapat you " . i was totally shock ,blashing and excited! he ask me to be his girlfriend. so i say YES <3 . 

but then we breakup :(

2010
his sister told me that he was not coming home for such a long time, but i dont have his phone number. so i dont know how and where to look for him , i did worried about him! :( im scare if anything happend to him. then i dont know what happened to him all i did is pray . 

27.12.2010
i got a miscall from stranger . so i text and ask "who are you ?"
then no respone , i ignore . then after i had finish my cricket training , i called that number.
and guess what! 

Me : hello , who are u?
Stranger : hello hi , im *&^$&*(@&*
Me : huh, who? i cant hear you clearly
Stranger : hi im IZZAT FARHAN . 
( i was shock and i was stand still , SUMPAH terkejut and HAPPY! dengan suara dia dh lain , i mean
suara baru bangun tdo :P hehe )
Me : hey, OMG you! i miss you like HELL , never though you will call me ! haha
Him : i pon miss you la ALIAH , you kat mne? bising nya . 
Me : i kt tpi jalan otw nak prg gaint kat kinrara bru lps training .

then my credit habis. THANK god time tu dah sampai gaint . trus pergi top up tau!
then dia msg .
"aliah :D i miss you . "
hehe i pon rep . 
then i pon ckp lah yg i ada terserempak dgn dia kat sunway but time tu i segan nak tegur dia , so i lari :P hehe
dia pula mrh i sbb tk tgr dia, dia kata " sumpah i nak jumpa you , i miss you so much! , i pon ckp sorry , then dia tanya bila nak jumpa . i pon ckp laa bila i free,kita hang ok . then dia ckp "eyh aliah i pernah kiss you tak :P " , hahah i pon ckp laa " tak pernah . lepas tu dia ckp mcm ni  "oh yekee ? i nak try kissing dengan you , tak pernah dapat lagi doee :) then i jawap  "i aint give a kiss if your not my man . bkn apa just i mmg tak boleh ". dia jawap " okay , so i have to be your man laa to get that kiss of yours ? i was " haha i think , yes  :D" lastly dia ckp mcm ni " the question is , would you be my woman " sumpah i terkejut. apa lagi i terus lah call dia . heheh n yes secara official 27.12.2010 im yours Izzat Farhan .

30.12.2010
i have bbq . i invite him . he bring his BFF , haha alfian i guess. sorry i dont know how to spell ur name.
i spent a lot of time with him. all night long. i introducing him to my family, i think my mom like's him <3 weee :P 
so that night was THE BEST NIGHT eveer! 

dear biee <3 
i love you so much , my life is empty if you were not around. i need you so much , 
ingat janji you dekat i biee , i pegang janji you , and i will do my best to be you BEST ever GIRL. thank you sebab masih bagi i peluang to be with you . promise me that you will be with me forever .  

Natasha Izany

org ini , aku syg dia. dia paham aku . hehehe sengal mcm aku gak . gila mcm aku , aku tak tau
klu dia ni tak teman aku , mesti aku gila GILA , haha dia selalu tolong aku time susah and senang , aku bersyukur gila! eyhh SHA igt tau janji kita hehehe after spm kita TERUS cari ok :D iloveyou laa kawan!

empty

he lays me lie, lie lie lie ,
i dont understand why you must lie .
lie is not a part of the sollution ,
lie will make a our life dificult .

i miss all our sweet , romance , and happy time.
you leave my feet off the ground you spin me around.
you make me crazier crazier .

1 november 2010

just a memory.

 i hope he got the happiness from this girl , i should forget about you , but thn sudden i saw alif satar sing cukup indah , his face totally same as your cute face. sometime i blame myself because of my attitude , JELES. i know you need life. but i actually try to give you a life , i try to accept you in my life, and yerh one night i had called you and we have a long talk , he calmed me and said he love me very much , and one last word i told him is " no matter how hard we try to separate but the end we never forget each other , its like magnet , you in me , and i'm in you " . you gave me a hope . and i love you so much. and the next day , i find out you with her. how could u do this to me. now i know you will never laeve her cos i know you . i know you well .

say it loud.

aku tau kau tipu aku , kau kata kau syg aku , tpi syg kau bukan macam dulu,
aku kenal kau , slme aku dengan kau i dah paham perangai kau macam mna, 
kau tak mahu lepas kan aku sebab kau kesian atau sebab kau betul betul sayang aku?
aku tak tau apa yang kau nak dari aku . 


aku penat , penat sangat dengan DRAMA ni .

when the wind blow all problem.

i never thought that you will treat me this way? but i treat the way you want , i gave everything you want .
please think i have heart , i have feeling , i care about other people but people always think on the other side of me.
sometime i think i give up with all this drama, i feel like killing myself , they need respect well YEAH i give you respect. but please at less smile or thank you will give me some kind heart.

people like to betrayer people by any kind of way,
think why people nice to you , why people treat you like this , and why you think you are perfect  

happy birthday mom :D

you always gorges and the best damn MOM n GRANY in the world.

P.S i love you - akak 

im sorry .

single

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iam single

holiday ' S :D

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 Asian Games Village for Atlet , Japan

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Guangzhaou Tower

A love of came from feeling

budak lelaki ini curi hati saya lagi . dia banyak menolong saya , dia memahami saya, dia GILA :P haha.

dia pandai curi perhatian saya, tapi satu je yang tak puas hati dgn dia, ermnn dia busy sampai buat saya rasa lonely . tpi yes saya takut untuk menyakiti hati org , saya akan cuba untuk memahami awak. terima kasih sbb sudi teman saya masa saya susah n senang. 

p.s i love you again .

thank you akiem , very sweet of you.

he said , and thank you.

  
  he said ,

you are a great girl , you made my life up side down,

how can i survive without you by my side, 

i need you , please dont go , 

i love you . 

  i said , 

im sorry ,

you got to let me go ,

i know its hard to let me go,

but yes you are the best , you understand me ,

i will never forget every single thing that you had done for me .

thank you. 1 Ocktober 2010

Say Goodbye

i dedicate this song to YOU 

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
'cause I know

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

im sorry  ; ' (

GUANGZHOU

some how its happen

its not my decision  to left you , i still love you , you understand me so much.

but you make my heart HURT badly , why ? ermnn

im telling you the truth because i dont want a lie or a secret between us,

he said to me like this.

kau memang byk lelaki kan! aku menyesal doh . 


pastu semua kau nak salahkan aku , aku sanggup tunggu kau balik 


bday aku pon kau tak sambut ,klu aku tau , aku malas nak tunggu . 


kau buat macam ni , aku pon boleh lagi kejam.


kalau kau boleh buat macam tu , aku pon boleh cari


 perempuan and buat mcm tu juga la.


dah lah! lepas ni kau buat apa yang kau nak buat .


good bye foreva , semoga kau bahagia.

aku memang nak kau balik ,tpi aku tak dapat syang kau mcm dulu

aku sakit hati sangat sangat , im so sorry .

 genap 1 bulan kita couple kalau ikut kan masih couple.

im so sorry , this time u really gotta let me go.

i made this on 25 november 2010

D R E A M

dream , dream , dream

people said dream is awesome .

no dream , no future . 

it is true ? 

hby ? :)